Ladies, divorcing your friends is a very bad idea.

Unless they are serial killers, perverts, etc then it is perfectly acceptable.

I’m not actually divorcing them, it’s sort of becoming a trial separation. And I’m not separating from all of them, only three. I feel terrible about it and I know it’s pretty much all my fault because I think space is needed and following this I’m planning to speak to each of them individually - in the hope it can all be sorted out. I’ve cried and wondered whether I should just dive in at the deep end and try to deal with the issues as of right now but this would do more harm than good.

I need to work with myself as a person and change some things. I have many plans for the summer, I’m hoping that I can do what I need to do and then go back and show that I have made improvements to my being.

So the decision has been made that I am going to become a little of bit of a loner for a small while. My time being spent shopping, drinking coffee from Starbucks and generally trying to look cosmopolitan.

Lets be upfront . . .

I live with my two cats. I’m pretty average. I’m currently single, men my age are assholes. I have amazing friends who at times really piss me off. Long blonde hair and blue eyes. I consider myself to be average looking. I’m of a thin/average weight though at the moment I’ve become more worried about my eating habits. I’m 5”6, I’ve always wanted to be taller.

I’m currently reading Eat Pray Love and loving it. I always feel much older than I am which worries me. I honest to goodness can’t wait to get away from the town I live in, I’ve never truly felt like I belong here, cliche I know. I kind of feel like I can’t be myself here.

A psychic told me to start this blog. . . .

Now I’m not really one for believing in spiritual stuff but I went to see a psychic last night and got a private reading. She was right about so many things and one of the cards I picked was the creative writing card and she told me I need to get back into writing.

I was standing in my kitchen at midnight tonight making myself some food and I decided I would start writing this blog … .